It has been quite a long time since I have written in this blog. With all the different sites that offer blogging these days I almost forgot about this one.
However, today I wanted to write where nobody I knew could find me. Sometimes its nice to feel like people are listening, both those who do not know you, cant judge you the same as those who do.
Seeing as its 2008 and a new year, I thought maybe things would starting looking up. 2007 was a horrible and probably one of the worst years of my life.
Then you experience a day like today. It may be a new year, but it didnt change a damn thing between my family.
This morning my brother flipped out accusing me of stealing one of his video games. I of course did not. He starts rifiling through my drawers trying to prove me wrong, and somehow ended up pysical.
My step-dad walked upstairs just in time to see my brother slamming my head into the bedroom wall, which in turn caused an even large brawl between the two of them.
My brother is obviously missing a screw in his head because what started as a simple argument over a mising video game turned into him being kicked out of our house. I guess 19 years isn't long enough to build common sense in his world.
My mom is feeling bad for kicking him out, worrying that he's going to end up homeless or hungry or worse dead. My step-dad feels like if he wouldn't have gotten involved the whole situation could have just been between us. And me? I'm in so much pain I feel like I'm going to pass out.
The saddest part about the whole situation is I'm blaming my dad for all of it. Maybe if he would actually have cared enough about our lives before we became adults, neither of us would be so screwed up? He cares more about his wifes family than he does about his own two children.
I heard my brother calling him earlier, telling him he needed a place to stay and my dad turned him away. What kind of dad turns away his kid, when he knows nothing about either of our lives? He's just lived so long without taking care of us, that he's not going to start now.
I know my brother and I are both adults now, but its still hard to have a dad that doesnt give two shits about his kids? Thank God for my step-dad. He is such an amazing human being. He's taken care of us and loved us since I was 8 and Eric was 5. I just wish my brother would come to his senses and realize that before he starts taking swings and insulting the only man who's been a father figure to him for the majority of his life.
Its been really nice having somewhere to write my thoughts again. It feels great to write it out and get a load off my chest. I've been feeling pretty down lately about my own personal situations.
Life always works itself out in the end. Right?
[Brittney]
Posted at 6:52 pm by Karaokediva419
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I'd like to take a second to show my support for the Northwest Mechanics on strike. My father works for Northwest, and is currently standing outside the Minneapolis International Airport with a picket sign. (You may even see him on TV.) I'd like to take the time to ask everyone not to fly Northwest durring the strike and honor the mechanics requests. This is a very stressful time for many families in Minnesota, and doing so would really help them out.
Posted at 2:29 pm by Karaokediva419
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